OneWord 2018

This year, thanks to Kaitlin Curtice and OneWord365 I am choosing a word as a guide to lead me through 2018. When I think about the coming year I can easily get overwhelmed and an accelerated heart rate when I think about all the unknown. I graduate from college in April. And then, who knows what will…

spaces, qi, SST

I’ve been home for almost two weeks now. As much as I miss China, it has been so good to reconnect with the spaces and people I missed while I was away. But friends, I’m spending too much money. I need to start saving. Saving for adulthood. But I keep thinking how else do I…

a letter to my church

To my beloved church, Who has been with me from the very beginning. Who knotted a comforter with words of love and scripture written on the patches and wrapped it around me after my first few very scary days on earth. Who laid hands on me when I felt the Spirit lead me to the…

21 things I’ve learned in 21 years

The idea to formulate a list of 21 things I’ve learned in 21 years came from a dear friend, Rowena Zuercher. Even though my 21-year anniversary of being a human on earth was in December, it’s never too late or early to celebrate, right? So here is what I know to be true: I receive…

wrestling

Growing up as a pastor’s kid and as the daughter of a pastor’s kid, I am all too familiar with the role of a pastor. While I realize this role looks differently depending on location, denomination, and the individual an all too common theme I noticed and felt was burnout. I lost my dad to…

I opened my mouth

“Darling, you feel heavy because you are too full of truth. Open your mouth more. Let truth exist somewhere other than inside your body.” -della hicks-wilson I have fought and fought writing down these words for fear that they may become real again. That the hurt would surface once again like it did so on…

I am an empath

Initial thoughts: I have a problem with empathy. I think I feel too much at times. I find myself longing to be present when a friend needs another soul to share their pain with, but I don’t know how to set boundaries. I have a hard time defining when I am feeling my own pain…

longing for intimacy

All it was was the simple question of a friend, “How are you? You’ve been on my heart. What’s God been speaking to you these days?” that triggered a multitude of emotions and a search to the core of my being. I received this question right after reading an article titled, “Stop Googling. Let’s Talk,”…

20 years

My phone is buzzing accompanied by my iPod screen lighting up with notifications that someone has posted on my Facebook wall or tagged me in a photo. So I think to myself, well what in the world did I do to deserve all these reminders that I am loved by so many? There is always…